I Didn't Ask To Be Here

(アルバム： Imperfect Animal - 2022)

Born only to be an extension of you
And forced to live someone else's life
Feeling like I never had the option
'Cause blood's thicker than water, right?

Tried to stand up straight, tried to look content
"Don't forget your manners, wipe those tears from your face
Don't you embarrass me
Don't you embarrass me again"

I felt your venom in sickeningly sweet tones
Your disapproving gaze leaving scars on my skin again
Roadmaps leading to who I could never be
No one that could ever make you happy

Am I pretty enough?
Am I smart enough?
Look at me and tell me straight

Am I pretty enough?
(Do you love me now?)
Am I smart enough?
(Do you love me now?)
Look at me and tell me straight
Do you love me now?

I felt your venom in sickeningly sweet tones
Your disapproving gaze leaving scars on my skin again
Roadmaps leading to who I could never be
No one that could ever make you happy

(You're admiring your reflection in shattered mirrors through broken lenses)
(You're admiring your reflection in shattered mirrors through broken lenses)
(You're admiring your reflection in shattered mirrors through broken lenses)
(You're admiring your reflection in shattered mirrors through broken lenses)
(You're admiring your reflection in shattered mirrors through broken lenses!)

I've killed myself to survive and laid awake countless nights
Carrying the weight of this sorrow
All I ever wanted was your love, but now
I understand that you can't give what you never had

I want you to look me in my eyes and tell me if you love me now
Your baby girl grown into a beautiful disaster
You'll blame anything else except for yourself
For this pain that you've given me

It's not my fault, it never was my fault
Take a good look at yourself