Anxiety

(アルバム： Waves - 2019)

On the surface everything's just fine
But nervous doesn't describe
What's going on behind these eyes
It's just too easy to fake a smile
But you got my heartbeat on repeat
Going bout a hundred thousand miles

My mind's racing but I can never outrun you
You're two steps ahead while I'm tripping over my shoes

A-N-X-I-E-T-Y
No matter how hard I try
You will never leave
Yeah yeah
I H-A-T-E-Y-O-U
And all the stupid things you do
I give in so easily
You get the best of me
You get the best of me

I wish I could just let you go
But the truth is you are all I've ever known
You're an infection, a medicine, just numbs my brain
I'm doing anything and everything
To feel normal again, what's normal again, 'cause

My mind's racing but I can never outrun you
You're two steps ahead while I'm tripping over my shoes
My mind's racing but I can never outrun you
Playing games with me that I will always lose

A-N-X-I-E-T-Y
No matter how hard I try
You will never leave
Hey yeah
I H-A-T-E-Y-O-U
And all the stupid things you do
I give in so easily
You get the best of me
You get the best of me
Of me... of me...

It's crazy, my thoughts start racing
And my mind's erasing everything I knew
It's just pills and therapy bills
Just to keep me away from you
And it works for a little while, bullshit smiles
But I was just walking through the motions
Either that or losing track of my emotions
4AM panic attacks, taking red-eyes back, home
I feel by myself, but with you
I'm never alone, damn

A-N-X-I-E-T-Y
No matter how hard I try
You will never leave