Traumatized

(album: With Love 2 - 2020)

Yeah
(KB Wildin')

I don't really trust nobody, I be moving low-key
I be in my thoughts late nights, so I don't sleep
Tell me that you love me but you don't really know me
I don't really take nobody word, you gotta show me
That's just where I come from
Traumatized from the past and the pain is the only thing I run from
But I'm ten toes down, and I won't let it break me

I remember the days they said I ain't deserve it
I ain't had no food, felt my stomach turning
I was dead broke, I was dead broke (Yeah, yeah)
Numb it with the Hennessy, my stomach burning
Lost the one I loved, that's who I trusted in
I just feel like I can never love again
Another day that pass, I lose another friend
In a city full of sharks, you gotta learn to swim (Yeah)
Drowning in my thoughts going crazy
I was on my knees, praying somebody save me
And I was all alone getting drunk on the daily
And I all wanted as kid was that brand new Mercedes
But now I see the fake intentions of people coming around
When I had nothing, they was nowhere to be found
They hated me back then but they fucking with me now
I keep my feelings locked away and hide my pain with a smile
And I don't need no fake love from you niggas
And I don't need no fake hugs from you niggas
'Cause you dubbed me when I trusted you niggas
Now it's funny, I don't fuck with you niggas, no
Only hit me up when you need something (When you need somethin')
Don't know if I'm drunk or I'm just numb (Just numb)
I never understand where I came from (Came from)
Drowning my emotions, let that shit run
And now they talk bad
They never loved me, remember that when they call back
They got they hands out, now I'm off that
I lost it all but eventually got it all back

I don't really trust nobody, I be moving low-key
I be in my thoughts late nights, so I don't sleep
Tell me that you love me but you don't really know me
I don't really take nobody word, you gotta show me
That's just where I come from
Traumatized from the past and the pain is the only thing I run from
But I'm ten toes down, and I won't let it break me

Spending late nights in the PJs
Know they been tripping 'cause some [?] threeway
Got a problem, I think I'm in love with her sweet chase
Get her an adrenaline rush, you give the same feeling as a high speed race
Been through it all, gotta stand tall, gotta stay ten toes down
I was in the back streets, spin the block, you get your shit blown out
Gangster, but I need love that's significant
I be with demons but I'm an angel, like I'm Heaven-sent
I used to do bad shit for the Hell of it
Got a story but I ain't telling it
Traumatized from the pain, and then it's hard, it ache
I got a story but I ain't telling it, do bad shit for the Hell of it
'Cause I ain't got no more room for a heartbreak
Still with same guys, feeling tough will get you [?] but I'm big like Deebo
My heart, and bitch I've been real from the start
I'm traumatized and paranoid, I gotta play it smart
They'll leave me in the dark

I don't really trust nobody, I be moving low-key
I be in my thoughts late nights, so I don't sleep
Tell me that you love me but you don't really know me
I don't really take nobody word, you gotta show me
That's just where I come from
Traumatized from the past and the pain is the only thing I run from
But I'm ten toes down, and I won't let it break me