Growth

(альбом: I.C.A.B.S. - 2019)

Just thought I'd call to say what's up, I'm just checking in
And even though you ain't my blood, you like my closest kin
Before the money and accolades, you was my only friend
Forever grateful, you were the only one that I would ever depend on
I know I lose track of time, I know I ain't hit you back
I know you think I changed but I'm the same, that's in full effect
A phone full of missed texts, I ain't mean no disrespect
So before you tell me 'bout myself man just let me interject
It's like no one can recall when I was broke and starving
Back when I would pray for better days and bright tomorrows
I ain't no fool, I know this time we living on is borrowed
I had to be real with myself, reality can be the toughest pill to swallow uh

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I just been working on myself, yeah
I just been working on myself, yeah
I ain't mean to miss your call, I ain't mean to do no harm
I'm just focused on myself, damn
I been too proud to ask for help, declining mental health
I'm in the process of tryna learn to love my fucking self
If I can't do for me, then I can't do for no one else
I ain't tryna drink or smoke nigga, that's gon' make this shit worse
I just keep working on myself, damn
I just been working on myself, damn
I know I missed your text, I lost track of time, damn
But for the sake of my sanity, I'll keep working on myself
I'm just working on myself

I feel like I'm at my wits end, wondering when this happiness gon' kick in
All I do is work, you can't tell my life ain't no different
Dealing with frustrations, it's daily, derails my vision
This is something I can't explain, you gotta see it for yourself
This shit is sick, this is everything that I hoped it wasn't
Back when niggas had dreams and aspirations of becoming something
I coulda never imagined I would see all of the shit I seen
Blind to all the warning signs and red flags in front of me
There's no relief, on a search for peace, follow my path faithfully
I can't believe we at a dead end, how can it be?
Trials and tribulations, not meeting expectations
Looking inside and realizing you broken and vacant

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I just been working on myself, yeah
I just been working on myself, yeah
I ain't mean to miss your call, I ain't mean to do no harm
I'm just focused on myself, damn
I been too proud to ask for help, declining mental health
I'm in the process of tryna learn to love my fucking self
If I can't do for me, then I can't do for no one else
I ain't tryna drink or smoke nigga, that's gon' make this shit worse
I just keep working on myself, damn
I just been working on myself, damn
I know I missed your text, I lost track of time, damn
But for the sake of my sanity, I'll keep working on myself
I'm just working on myself

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