Lose It

[Ally Rendall:]
I don't wanna
Lose it
Holding by a thread, I
Wish I could forget, but
I don't wanna
Lose it
Scared of moving backwards
Stuck inside a pattern
I don't wanna
Lose it

[360:]
Never thought I would take off (Take off)
Fly round, land in the same spot
As I said, it's about time when I get to cloud nine
But it only left me with brain fog (Yeah)
I don't care what the press say (Nah)
Everybody knows I'm a head case
I don't need a doctor to tell me
No x-ray can explain my chest pain
I don't know what I believe anymore (More)
Don't I know if I believe what I read anymore (More)
Like the world's gone dark, everybody's got a gaslight
Tryna help me see through it all, and I see through it all
(Yeah) Waiting for an apology
Got a better chance of making it with the lottery
Hate that I always wanna be on my own, now
I'm seeing anonymity taken as animosity
I understand if you wanna disown me
The last few years, I am not a good homie
There's a part of my shit that I gotta be owning
How I wanna be alone but don't wanna be lonely
Yeah, but I like to wonder
What life'll be like when I'm trying structure
Can I rise above? [?] guys, I love ya
Even though I treat phone calls like a private number
Know what I'm getting in my own thoughts
Went and made a fuck up like an iPhone chord
As I look in the mirror, couldn't be clearer now
We ain't seeing another eye in life at all (At all)
Lose it
Putting in the work, they can notice improvement
Listen to the words that I wrote in the music
Careful now, 'cause

[Ally Rendall:]
I don't wanna
Lose it
Holding by a thread, I
Wish I could forget, but
I don't wanna
Lose it
Scared of moving backwards
Stuck inside a pattern
I don't wanna
Lose it

[360:]
Yo, for years I was lost in a silent state
With a head so loud in a violent rage
Feeling fated to go throw life away when
Real life is the one thing I try escape
Now I'm trapped with a lion who can't be tamed
Back to square one now, gotta start again
Instead of running away, I try to embrace and face
All the shit up in my life that was hard to take, I
Parted ways with the party ways and I'm
Partly weighed down by that part today
Don't give a fuck about anything, it's hard to take
When I'm feeling so much in me that it's hard to say
Yeah, paid for a vase and a nice bouquet
I'ma place on a grave when it's Father's Day
My mind's evil, [?] grieving for people
And they ain't even pass away (Yeah)
'Cause I know I'm gonna hate it when they will be
Overthinking everything, it got me feeling guilty
Distance will be only ever building
Thinking everyone I meet is only here to milk me, yeah
[?] so sharp it'll kill me
Let myself go, now feeling so filthy
Pick myself up, I'm putting it together how
I never been before but I knowing what I will be here, yeah

[Ally Rendall:]
I don't wanna
Lose it
Holding by a thread, I
Wish I could forget, but
I don't wanna
Lose it
Scared of moving backwards
Stuck inside a pattern
I don't wanna
Lose it