I Look Up And See You

It's Halloween again, my plans fell through
Roommates out of town but I still think about you
When I'm watching a film and I hear Clair de Lune
I still think it sounds good in the empty room

Do you hear it too
I've been good
I'll feel beautiful when I wake up with someone new
The ugly truth
Wish you could see me on my own
Still writing songs with power chords and charm
Alone in my tinted room
Left confused with creeping feelings coming back to me

Let's drop the act, we're crossing paths
Don't want to repeat it
I'll break it down into a colorful handful of pieces
Ask yourself what's for the best and if there's a reason
A multitude of fever dreams and lovely conclusions

You may see me around town
Staring at the ground
But the ground is made of the sky now
I'm falling through the clouds
I'm calling out for help
If I close my eyes I feel alone

Float around the bend with me tonight
Or any day or any time
Bittersweet when we meet
I know I'm not the one you think about
There are things I should say
But I'll forget about them anyway
I can't think straight
I can't see anything or anyone else but you and me

You may see me around town
Staring at the ground
If the ground was made of my mouth
I would climb into myself
I'd find out how far down it goes
A body I can call a home

It's Thanksgiving again
My family pulled through
I know some time has passed
But I'm still thankful for you
When I'm standing real still and the sky turns pale blue
I can't help but wonder what it thinks of you
Do you see yourself in you
Did you grow into what you wanted to
With someone else
There's only so much that our words can do
The ways we use them seeps between us

Alone in my tinted room
The creeping ceiling creaks beneath me now
I suppose I'll see myself out
I'll bury the dream, I'll write it down
I'll talk to you soon
Make an excuse to wander around
I look up and see you