I'm So Concerned About The Ending That I Don't Even Know The Plot (from "i stayed up until sunrise but got to fall asleep t

I'll start it off by saying I'm not one for the complaining
You wouldn't know it from my writing
You wouldn't know it from my songs
But I am different, I am free
I am what you need

But oh my god, I miss you more than I thought was possible
I understood the obstacles but you could have tried more
Because sometimes it seems, I need a mom more than I need to eat
So I didn't eat and I didn't sleep, I'd go all day without a bite
And that's not my fault

And I'll admit sometimes my chest gets so tight that I throw fits
You said you'd always be there, where are you through all of this?
Because this is hard, this is way harder than I thought
I'm so concerned about the ending that I don't even know the plot
Except for I am different, I am free
I am what you need

So you think of all the things that make you sad
And don't include them in your better half
Because I'm not like you
I don't find happiness in a meaningless existence
I don't know what I'm going to do
But I am different, I am free
I am what you need

And yeah, I believe that there's a god
I believe that there is something out there other than my thoughts
I believe it was never science against religion
It wasn't poor against wealth
It was always me against myself
And I'm so scared who's going to win
Because I wake up feeling so shitty
It's been so long since you've been with me
I don't know where this old body's going to go
Or my soul

But I know I am different, I am free
I am what you need